Well, It is another day here in the Pacific Northwest and this one has been mostly sunny. I love how amazing it is after a few days of clouds and rain. Everything looks fresh and clean and my attitude is lighter. It's a lot like life. There are seasons and days full of cold darkness followed by warm light.
For so long I wondered and prayed, "How can I stay in the sun?" Of course there are places with much less rain, but they don't have all the green trees! I've stopped praying that prayer because It is clear that I need both the storms and the sunshine in order to see the significance of each. What I pray now is, "Lord help me not to lose my way in the storm."
I don't know about you, but if the darkness lingers, I start questioning what I once knew to be true. Like somehow the darkness is all my fault, this one won't end, or God can't see me here. Oh how the enemy feeds the lies in that place. He will take that first inkling of doubt and add to it and work at it until I have wondered a great distance. Why is it so hard to believe that God loves me. Really, just as I am, knowing all the darkness that is in my heart and all my mistakes. Yet He loves me still.
I have heard over and over about His unconditional love. I understand that grace is unmerited favor. I can't earn it, yet I still try.
I'm sure there is noting new in this little note, but I am coming back to it again. Weeping that God is patiently willing to show me once again how true it is. He never moved away--I did for a time and it feels so good to be home and know I don't have to DO anything but rest in Him. Oh that I can stay here and tomorrow is just another day with Him! 