Where does inspiration come from? Sometimes I wonder where I can go to get a spark of an idea. Other times, the ideas flow in sheets and it's hard to get them all down on paper. The last several months have felt like a dry season. Clouds are forming and I sense moisture in the air, but still nothing really certain.
I am in a "between" space. As I wait for my husband to find a job and my youngest daughter to move into her own place, having found a job. There are things in the works and I see movement. Above all, I trust the Lord to be guiding us and working on our behalf even when I don't see Him. He feels quieter right now, though I have no doubt He is present.
I was trying to describe how I feel to my husband and he reminded me of several issues I'm dealing with right now that are draining energy. I have a couple of relationships that are out of balance and I'm trying to navigate choppy waters and it is draining. I don't feel motivated or inspired right now. I have thought about writing a blog for weeks, but I feel like I have nothing new to say.
Then yesterday I went to the home of a local artist. She is a young mom and allowed me and a couple of friends into her studio. As we went around the room, there was a musician, master gardener, a painter, and myself a writer. She talked about what moves her to create and the ebb and flow from her canvas to her audience. Gradually, there was a drop of inspiration forming. Then I remembered all the emails I have received from women who have been impacted by my book and some drops began to form.
As we said our good byes and left, it was raining all the way home. I was able to soak in her creative space and remember wetter times and believe that movre were coming. So, the dryness isn't fully saturated, but I felt refreshed and reminded that the Creator of all inpiration is still busy at work. I saw Him in the eyes of another, and remembered He is in me too even when I don't feel Him.
If you are in a dry place, it's okay. It doesn't mean that you have done anything wrong. (The enemy will try to accuse you.) Sometimes it means your energy needs to be used for healing or resolving some issue. As much as I love the rain and the new life it produces, the dry times serve a purpose too. I'm learning to give thanks in all kinds of weather, because God's love is consistent, steadfast, and certain!